Category Archives: Louder Than Words

Anti-Trans Bathroom Bills, Part I

Note: I wrote the following in 2021. I hadn’t polished it to the point where I was ready to post, but now that I’ve found it, I want it here as background. So I’m posting it now (June, 2023), with minor edits, and backdating to when it was originally written. I don’t actually know which bills were under discussion at the time, nor whether I had specific ones in mind.
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stylized bathroom sign with desperate-looking figures

“Holding It In” (image purchased from theprintedprint on etsy.)

To anyone who approves of regulating which bathrooms trans kids can use, I want you to ask yourself this: are you, personally, okay with having your genitals (or your birth certificate) checked whenever you use a public bathroom?

Maybe this hasn’t occurred to you. After all, we already know that the point of these bills is not to check everybody who needs a bathroom; the point is to challenge — and publicize — the gender identity of very specific people who already have their gender identity challenged every day.

Many trans people are already so terrified of being challenged on their right to pee that they will wait until they’re desperate before using the bathroom. These bills will make it clear that people are legally allowed to stop them, even at that moment.

Many trans people already avoid using public bathrooms at all costs, even if they’re out all day. Often, that cost is paid in recurrent urinary tract infections and ongoing health problems. These bills will make that worse.

Cleverly, if these bills pass, then trans and gender-non-conforming people will be challenged no matter what they do.* People who switch to the bathroom they’re comfortable with may legally be challenged at any time. Meanwhile, trans people who pass as cisgender will be challenged (inaccurately) if they follow the new rules and use their assigned-at-birth restroom.**

They will be challenged, and, often, they will be cornered. This is not new.

There is a classic and horrifying trope where school bullies corner a trans or gender-bending kid in a bathroom or locker room and force them to pull their pants down so everyone can see. And this is now meant to be codified into law? I know we’ve seen since 2015 that many school bullies never grew up, but really? Adults want this to be the law?

And if these laws pass, then how are they to be enforced? Since you can’t tell by looking (or else there would be no need for proof), the only really equitable way would be for everyone who wants to use a bathroom to prove, on the spot, that they have the legal right to use it.

I’m guessing this would seem somehow unfair, maybe even discriminatory, to those who have used bathrooms themselves without any worries at all for years.

Ostensibly, parents want these laws in order to protect their kids from (made up) scary people who might look at them funny.*** The argument falls apart once you realise that they’re perfectly happy to have other people’s kids looked at instead, in systematic and prurient ways, by other kids, or by adults.

And if the call for proof doesn’t apply to everyone, then it would have to be done by challenges, on a case-by-case basis. And if THAT happens, then I sincerely hope that there will be people, in the places that enforce such laws, who stand by the bathrooms, ready to challenge everyone who comes by.****

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*Footnote in 2023: How prescient of me, though I had no idea the laws would be written that way explicitly

**And also outed. Of course.

***Okay, they may claim that it’s to prevent attacks, but (1) trans people are already way more likely to be attacked in bathrooms than anyone else, and (2) attacking people is already illegal!

****(Though it would be nice if there were a way to avoid challenging closeted trans people.)

Primary Guidelines: Seven Rules for Riding out the Election Season

For Democrats, registered or not,* and other progressives, plus anyone else on the blue-purple side: Guidelines for working together with respect, and getting out the vote.

1) Check your registration status.  More than once.

Just to get this out of the way: Make sure you are registered to vote. Vote.org has a page for checking voter registration. Skip the form at the top if you don’t want to sign up for a mailing list; scroll down the page for links to each state’s official site. Also, here is a link to the voter registration deadlines in every US state for 2020 primary elections: A chart, and also a description for each state/territory and the different methods of registering.

So check. Especially if you have recently moved, but also if you haven’t.  Tell your friends to check, especially if they haven’t voted recently. And later, check again. If there’s anything we know, we know that voter suppression is alive and well — and likely to get worse.

Voter Suppression Could Reach New Heights in 2020 – Unless We Push Back (Truthout, 2020).
‘Tidal wave of voter suppression’ washes over states (NBC News, February, 2020)
Vote: Because Others Can’t (My analysis of voter suppression in November, 2018)
The Messy Politics of Voter Purges (Pew Trusts, October, 2019)
In Closely Divided Wisconsin, the Battle for Votes Is Already Underway (NY Times, January, 2020)

2) During the primaries, support the candidate(s) you support.  

This is exactly the right time to argue your case, and your candidate’s case, in the court of public opinion. Learn new things, read the platforms, find out what you can, and tell people what you know.  There is no need for all Democrats to pick a particular candidate ahead of time that everyone can agree on. That’s what the primary elections and caucuses are for.**

Support your candidate(s) loudly and proudly.  Recognize places they may be missing the mark, and consider telling them so.  If you change your mind, do it because you have weighed the issues, not because of peer pressure, or because people are acting as though one candidate or another is somehow more or less presentable.  Don’t go underground.***

3) After the primaries, support the candidate who won.

Someone queried recently, on a thread I was reading, that if we are encouraged to “choose party over candidate” by agreeing to “vote blue no matter who,” then how are we better than the current administration?  My response was twofold: one, that no one of the current candidates in the Democratic field is close to as vicious, demeaning, cruel, or dangerous as the current president: if there were someone like that, this advice would not hold (updated to add: but see Bloomberg, below****); and two, in contrast to “choosing party over candidate,” the current administration and its elected supporters have chosen party over country, over Constitution, and over human decency.

No one here is terrible (again,****).  They all have flaws. And their work is important.  Only by managing our disappointment and unifying our positions will we be able to turn back the tide of cruel and disastrous policies that have flowed from the white house in these years, and cruel and disastrous appointments that will otherwise keep those policies going for generations.

Not Voting is Not A “Statement” (John Pavlovitz, October, 2019)

By the way, I was going to say, “This is not the time for voting third party,” and then I recognised it as the kind of thing that people get told over and over again, as if you just have to wait for one more cycle, and that it’s kind of maddening. I was mad at my parents for saying it in 1980. If they wanted Anderson, why not vote for him instead of Carter? And I think the answer is, while the nation is so closely divided (well, when taking into account voter suppression and the electoral college), with razor thin edges, then the Presidential election will continue to be “not the time” for this kind of statement. I love that third party candidates have been winning at the local and state levels. I want that to be viable. But too many countrywide elections in my lifetime have been close enough to sway by the votes that go to third parties, with devastating effects, and I don’t foresee that changing any time soon.

4) Do not try to convince yourself or others that someone is so bad that you can’t vote for them, because we need those votes later.

If you don’t like someone’s policies, or past behavior, it’s fine to talk about it, or campaign against it.  But understand that there will be someone running against the executive in the White House, and there is no way any of these people could be as dangerous as the current resident.

Remember: there are people all across this country whose lives and livelihoods and day-to-day safety depend on the ending of the current right-wing administration, regardless of where the next President falls along the progressive spectrum.

At the Women’s March last month, I heard activist Tyunique Nelson say the following:
“If you are not centering the experiences of those among you who are most marginalized, then what are you doing?

Pay attention.  Work together. Commit to ending this crisis.

5) Understand that “electability” is a dangerous myth. 

One thing is clear to me: spreading doubts about any candidate’s “electability” will cause more damage than the actual reality of who people will vote for in the general election.

The idea of converging upon an “electable” candidate is extremely loaded.  It makes people want to do what feels safe. It was interesting reading in the articles below the notion that people’s idea of a candidate’s electability is based on who has won previously in the same position.  And so, despite the number of, say, women of color elected to other offices in the past two years, the people who are deemed “electable” turn out mainly to be older, white men.

Honestly, the number of people who don’t vote at all in American elections is so high that trying to pick your candidates based on what other people might or might not do will only lead to less integrity, not better turnout.

And here’s the thing: it’s all just hearsay.
A couple of people have told me, unprompted, that while they personally like her policies, there are many people who simply won’t vote for Elizabeth Warren in the general.  Never the person who’s saying this, you understand — just other people that we can’t know or control. So they don’t want to put their support behind her.

But you know what?  That’s true of every candidate.  People everywhere are vastly different, and every candidate will have large numbers of people who are so angry about something the candidate has done, or so disappointed in a loss by their own candidate, that they will refuse to vote for them in November on principle.  But if we convince ourselves to join those people, then no, our candidate will not have support, and, very possibly, none will have enough.

Our job now is to make voting for everyone more appealing.  If you hear someone saying that “people won’t vote for” a candidate, and that this is therefore a good reason not to support someone, this means it is your job to convince them otherwise.  Find out what they really think, talk about what you think, and focus on yourselves as actual voters, not on the hypothetical ones whose imagined whims might make this decision for you.

Democrats are prioritizing “electability” in 2020. That’s a coded term. (Vox, April, 2019)
The Word Female Presidential Candidates Have Been Hearing Over and Over (NY Times, January, 2020)
Column: Stop telling us about ‘electability’ – Opinion (Metro West Daily News, January, 2020)*****

6) No humiliation, no misogyny, no racism, no insults.  Don’t do it. Don’t stand for it. 

No humiliation:
The photoshopping has begun again, but at least the Sanders toboggan still has everyone smiling and having fun, not like the boxing gif of 2016.  Not like the insidious “I mix up Star Wars and Star Trek”/”I don’t understand jazz” memes that were designed to look like real quotes from Clinton.  Consider no photoshopping at all (do we really want to be like Representative Paul Gosar?).  Don’t forward these things, if their main purpose is to make someone look bad, or to make someone look bad for a laugh. Make sure to call out people who do.

But mostly, don’t try to make anyone out to be a loser, or a “lesser evil”.  No one here is a loser, so don’t use insults or humiliation for contrast with your own candidate, when, instead, you could use policy and your own enthusiasm.  Otherwise, as mentioned above, you run the risk of convincing yourselves and others not to vote. And that is the biggest danger here. If we band together, the Democrat wins.  If we splinter, the Democrat loses, and the reign of cruelty continues.

No misogyny:
It was appalling to see the amount of misogynistic stuff being passed along by supporters of Bernie Sanders in 2016, even from people I know who are otherwise nice people: from persistent double-standards to rude memes, from repeating long-standing right-wing insults to brand new hashtag-bern-the-witch.  And so many of them were based on sexist tropes that should have been gone by then, and certainly not perpetuated by anyone supporting progressive values. The Star Trek and jazz memes I just mentioned? I eventually learned they originated as “blonde” jokes.

And, most fascinating (and infuriating), people bent over backwards to insist that their issues with Hillary Rodham Clinton were not based in sexism.  I’d personally like to see whether that is true. Therefore, I decree that anyone who said, even once, in 2016, “It’s not because she’s a woman: If Elizabeth Warren were running, I’d vote for her,” is now honor bound to follow through.******

America loves women like Hillary Clinton–as long as they’re not asking for a promotion (Sady Doyle, QZ, February, 2016)
The Erasure of Elizabeth Warren Continues (Joan Walsh, The Nation, February, 2020)

No racism, either.  I’m disappointed that the field has become so abruptly white-focused in the past few months, and while I haven’t seen explicit or even covert insults, here again we have the fears of what other people will think and do if we choose someone who is different from what we’ve had before.  Pay attention to civility, and to the fact that voter suppression efforts constantly target people of color. That means the right wing knows that they are vitally important. Make sure we do, too.

And, finally, no anti-Semitism. I haven’t seen any yet directed toward Bernie Sanders, but the tensions are rising around us.  The thing is, we already know what the right wing will throw at a woman or a person of color who’s running for high office (including, if it’s a woman, how vigorously the left will echo it). We don’t yet have any idea what it will look like coming at a secular Jew. Be vigilant. And be aware that anti-Semitism is tricky. It can come as a multitude of ancient stereotypes, and it can come as a false association with Israel and its policies. Beware of this association, as it is used by the American right wing to gain support among Christians, not Jews. Do not confuse criticism of a government’s policies with attacks on a group of people.  And remember, a religious government such as Israel’s does not represent all members of the religion. This one doesn’t even represent all the people who live there. It certainly doesn’t represent those who are actually from other countries.

7) Allow faults. Think, just a little bit, like Republicans, and play the long game.

It is very clear that the current crisis is decades in the making.  There were books in the aughts about right-wing collaborators meeting in secret, planning their takeover.  There was the “Tea Party,” and there were small gains from their side over years and years. There’s been never-ending voter suppression.  Remember that judicial appointments are decades long. Remember that the environmental and social policies that Trump has annihilated over three years took decades to put in place.

Think like Republicans, who would hold their noses and vote for anyone who supports their values and plans, whether the candidates live those values or not.  I think, for the most part, our candidates do live by many, if not most, of the values we uphold. So, honestly, it shouldn’t be much of a nose hold.

And, finally, think of those who are most marginalized, those whose lives are being chipped away by health crises, whose families are separated by immigration policies, whose children are being bullied while white supremacists cheer, whose bodies are being regulated because they are women or because they are trans, whose lives are threatened by systemic racism, whose schools are encouraged to fail through lack of funding, whose water is being threatened, and whose natural spaces and landmarks are devastated by policy changes.*******

And vote with your conscience and their well-being in mind.

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*Note that some states allow all voters to vote in primaries, while some require primary voters to be registered for the party they’ll be choosing among.
Individual state details: 2020 Primary & Caucus Schedule

**Though I hate that they go on for months and affect each other so much.

***This is actually really important, not going underground.  While the pressure (ranging from sexist memes to a sense of isolation to outright verbal attacks) to support Sanders over Clinton in 2015-2016 led to a group of a million people finding each other and enthusiastically discussing her candidacy online, this meant that people outside the group had no idea how strong her support was.  Some people still talk as though her popular election was entirely half-hearted. And while the same online group has prospered and thrived in the years since, with regular stories of hope and pride that have helped mitigate the ongoing awfulness, I think it’s really important in this round that people’s enthusiasm be heard and respected across the wider populace.

****(Feb. 21) As noted in the comments (and as Senator Elizabeth Warren and others pointed out in the NV debate), Michael Bloomberg actually turns out to be more dangerous that I’d realised when I wrote this post. While I’m expecting to vote for him if I must, I do not want to have to choose among power-hungry billionaires, particularly sexist, racist ones, and to normalize the wealth=power dynamic. So here are my main campaign points against him:
– He poured millions of dollars into Senator Pat Toomey’s reelection campaign in 2016. Sen. Toomey (R., PA) was adamant in rejecting a hearing for SCOTUS nominee Merrick Garland throughout that year, and he has been almost unrelenting in his support for Trump ever since. People have protested outside Sen. Toomey’s offices every week for three years, and he does not deign to address them.
– He escalated “Stop and Frisk” in New York City while mayor, leading to frisking thousands of Black and brown people, most of which resulted in no charges or arrests (but ongoing harm).
– He settled multiple sexual harassment accusations with required nondisclosure agreements.
– He has a long list of racist, sexist, homophobic, transphobic comments, not to mention the denial of previous things he’s said, which seems awfully familiar…

*****I do have a particular gripe with this article: it contains the line, “oh, if you must, talk about their hair.”  The thing is, hair is a flashpoint in discussions of politics and respectability and the double standard in talking about women and men.  In the 2016 election, there was a Sanders-supporting meme that listed some qualifications for the President of the United States. Most of them were appropriate and clever.  But one, presumably intended to be funny by poking fun at their own candidate, was “bad hair”. Ha ha, Bernie Sanders has flyaway hair. But here’s the thing: a Presidential candidate can get away with “bad hair” only by being a man, and a white man at that.  And this man was running against not just any woman but Hillary Rodham Clinton, a woman whose hair was discussed all the time, a woman who was told 40 years ago that if she didn’t change her hair and her name, her husband would not be reelected as Governor of Arkansas.  If she had allowed her hair to be messy, that would have doomed her chances in public opinion, and that, unlike for Bernie Sanders, would have translated into lack of votes. In a corollary, it’s also extremely likely that Barack Obama could not have been elected President if Michelle Obama had worn her hair in a natural style.  So, no. Hair is not a thing to talk about in the context of elections where women are present.

******Stay tuned…I may go and check up on people who spoke out publicly on this one.

*******Sorry; that’s nearly everyone.

National Coming Out Day and Time Travel: A Belated Post

(Note: Posted October 2019, updated in 2020.)

A folded scarf in long, crocheted, rainbow stripes.

My first crochet project, ca. 2003.

For the two weeks before I began writing it, I was expecting this post to be (1) a lot shorter and (2) centered on the fact that when I came out 30 years ago on October 10, the Jewish calendar — 19-year cycle notwithstanding — matched up with the same secular days as this year, with Erev Rosh Hashanah on September 29 and Yom Kippur on October 9. It seemed significant that the context for my sudden, startling revelation, coming the day after a fast as it did, should be echoed here 30 years later: Yom Kippur (10/9), Personal Coming Out Day (10/10), National Coming Out Day (10/11).

This is no longer my focus. It is still about dates, though. And about time.*

Things change dramatically over time. Sometimes it takes 30 years, and sometimes it takes two years, or a single day. When I had my sudden, startling revelation on October 10, 1989, I was on a safe, supportive college campus, and I knew at the time that October 11 would be National Coming Out Day and that October 12 would be my frosh hall’s Gay and Lesbian Awareness Workshop.** This was only the beginning of my questioning process, so I wasn’t coming out to anyone else yet. But at that point, I knew that the very next day I could stay quiet in a sea of supportive celebration. I knew that the day after that I could sit in a circle and declare myself a lesbian, and no one would know whether I was role-playing or not, and I could get questions answered without fear. I knew I was incredibly lucky.***

A year or so later, I was in the campus GLBA office and noticed a photo on the wall. It was a cluster of students with signs on the National Mall, and it was labeled, “March on Washington, October 11, 1987”. And I stared. I am good at dates, and I am good at patterns. I knew, unequivocally, in that moment, that National Coming Out Day was created to commemorate that march. And that that meant that National Coming Out Day was created in 1988, and that 1989 was only the second one ever. And I was stunned by how close I had come to missing that day of celebration and power and comfort that I had thought was already an institution.

This is not to say I had taken my safe space for granted. It was just astonishment at how quickly and abruptly — and arbitrarily — things can change. After all, there wasn’t any particular day set up to commemorate the March on Washington for Lesbian, Gay, and Bi Rights that I did go to, on April 25, 1993. And yet the power of that march resonated later in powerful ways. I always thought, until five or ten years ago, that the national conversation about marriage equality started in 1994, when Hawai’i made its ruling that a marriage had to be able, based only on gender (not on actual fertility or intention), to produce children. But in fact, the 1993 march had a platform of demands, and one of the demands was an expansion of the definitions of family, including the recognition of domestic partnerships and legalization of same sex marriages.

Another thing that began in 1994 was the introduction of the Employment Non-Discrimination Act (ENDA) to Congress. Before this (from 1974), the focus had been promoting the Equality Act to expand the Civil Rights Act of 1964. ENDA has still not passed, despite being introduced (with gender identity added in 2009) to every Congress save one until 2014, when support wavered and efforts returned to the Equality Act, which this year passed the House but has not moved in the Senate. Instead, we now have the ACLU arguing employment discrimination cases in front of the Supreme Court, and an unfavorable Court at that.

I found myself surprised this week, however, to keep reading online comments framing these court cases as an unthinkable new disaster in this time, from people who were somehow stunned that it should become legal to discriminate against LGBTQ+ people in employment. And maybe those commenters live in the states where such rights are protected. The truth is, though, that there is no federal law against this discrimination, just years of painstaking work to establish scattered local and state protections. If the justices rule against us, those laws could be superseded, which indeed would be a devastating push backward. But if, by some chance, they vote in our favor, then we would gain federal protection that we have never had.

[Edited in 2020 to add: And they did rule in our favor! See Bostock vs. Clayton County.****]

It’s been very curious being around long enough to see how much the conversation and the climate have changed over 30 years. Watching and welcoming the emerging gender identity movement, particularly over the last decade, has felt new and fascinating and also strangely familiar. From young kids coming out and public activism to bathroom bills and ongoing violence to language change and new books and new accommodation, I keep feeling, yes, this is where we were back in the ‘90s: visibility and backlash and violence and change. And in the nineties I was told by people who lived through the rise of third wave feminism in the ’70s: this is the way it goes: visibility and backlash and change. And so we all keep going, being visible, speaking our truth, and making change.

I began this essay on October 11, and it’s now grown enough that I’m finishing it a week later, and thus I’ve gotten to see, spread around my Facebook feed, the dawning of a new Day: the second instance of International Pronouns Day, begun last year on the third Wednesday in October. This is only the second one ever.

And this reminded me of something important that did happen just after Yom Kippur this year. We shared our break-fast meal that evening with longtime family friends, and since there were people at the table who didn’t know each other, one of the family, in support of her sibling, suggested we go around and do names and pronouns.

Now, I’ve been including my pronouns in my email signature at work for the past year and a half, but, I realised as it neared my turn, this was the first time I’d ever done it out loud. And then I looked at my kid, for whom this ritual was also new, and watched to see what he’d say. And even though he had only “she” and “they” modeled before his turn, he gamely followed the pattern and said, “…and I use he/him pronouns.” And thus we move forward, one word or day or year at a time, toward safe space, toward recognizing human dignity, and toward comprehensive human rights.


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*Though, to be fair, only about the most mundane type of time travel.

**The CoLeGA (Coalition for Lesbian and Gay Awareness, later renamed BiLeGA [and eventually, in 1999, BiLeGaTA]) Awareness workshop was my favorite of the required awareness workshops, and it was cleverly designed. Everyone would sit in a circle, with two student facilitators, and everyone had to say, in turn, “I am a lesbian” or “I am a gay man”. That was the only thing we were required to say out loud. (To be fair, there were a few students who refused to do the workshop at all, based on this.) What followed was a role-play, in which the facilitators would give prompts, such as, “Tell me about a time you felt discriminated against,” or “How does it feel to tell people?” and anyone who wanted could reply. If we didn’t identify as gay or lesbian (or bi), we were asked to draw on our experiences based on other identities, or to imagine what it would be like. For the second half, we wrote questions on pieces of paper that we didn’t want to ask aloud, and the facilitators read them out and answered them as best they could.

***Actually, I wasn’t quiet on National Coming Out Day; I was fairly loud and enthusiastic, and I’m pretty sure it was even my proposal (earlier in the week) that for our hall’s turn at the dorm’s Wednesday “wine and cheese” on October 11, we serve chocolate chip cookie dough and milk, both colored with pink food coloring. But I wasn’t loud for myself, quite yet.

****Note that this decision, similar to the provisions of ENDA, covers only employment, leading to renewed focus on the Equality Act, including in the Biden campaign: “Biden will make enactment of the Equality Act during his first 100 days as President a top legislative priority.”

…Or All the Seas with Plastic

My workplace right now has a huge focus on sustainability, which is awesome, and yet also a startling amount of conspicuous waste, including much plasticware. I have been thinking very intensely about this particular image lately, and I haven’t found any better way to express exactly these sentiments. The poster is no longer available to purchase, so I asked permission to post it here. Turns out it’s available under a Creative Commons license (see details in caption).*

Come on, people. Wash your spoons.**

 
 
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(Title is a reference to the story “Or All the Seas with Oysters” by Avram Davidson.)

*Also, yay, I got a question added to an FAQ!
**With the understanding that some people don’t have enough spoons*** to wash spoons.
***(That is, spoons as physical and/or emotional resources.)